Blooming In Adversity

Perhaps it’s the fact that Lent just ended and the Easter season has me feeling pretty dang inspired, or maybe it’s just the nostalgia that has come with today, but lately I’ve been deeply contemplative of where I have been the last year and how the Lord has worked in my life. I’m not about to sit here and tell you that I know the ins and outs of the Lord’s plan- only He knows, and they’re His best kept secret. We never truly know what will happen until we’ve been there, done that.

A year ago today, I got a letter saying I wasn’t accepted to nursing school.

A year ago today, I felt devastated. I felt betrayed.

A year ago today I was sitting in the chapel on campus, asking God why the heck he would give me such a burning desire to do something, only to not see it through? My only response was a sense of overwhelming peace.

I published an article on my thoughts at the time, and it was all hopeful stuff. And though I knew all of it to be true, and I felt peaceful, it was still a dark time for me. Nursing is hard, and it is competitive. You learn to work under extreme amounts of pressure for really high stakes, because you aren’t studying for a simple degree- you’re studying to save someone’s life someday. You’re studying for a passion- a vocation. And much like the job, the process of getting into nursing school is not for the faint of heart. Over time, the competition becomes engrained in you and if you can’t keep it in check, it can really overtake your personality. I had let it get to that point, and the only thing I felt from that rejection letter was crippling failure and incompetence. I wasn’t the best.

But those were lies. Now, I look back and see just how far I have come.

I feel like the Lord needed me to deepen my trust in Him before I got into the program. In leaving San Marcos, I would be cutting some roots that had grown very deep. After becoming independent and finding my footing, I would be leaving a life that had become so enriched by the people and experiences that I surrounded myself with and returning to a place that suddenly felt barren with just school. My relationship with the Lord would be the only thing that was definitely going to carry over, and He needed to deepen that. He needed me to trust Him more, because going through a program so intense and so far away from many of my closest friends was going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever done. So why not hit where it would hurt the most, and build from there?

I wasn’t one of the 100 that was originally accepted to St. David’s School of Nursing. My call didn’t come until over the summer. So what? I’m here now, and I’m thriving. I’ve been given the opportunity to be president of an amazing group of people, and I’m doing better in school than I ever have before. There was a period when I really doubted my abilities, but God pushed me through. He let me lean on Him through the hardest “no” I have ever heard, and He created a path for me. Β Though I’ve learned to tame the competition, comparison can still creep up on me when I least expect it. I need to stop believing the lie that I’m not capable; the Lord proved to me this last year that I am MORE than capable- and He continues to prove it each and every day.

A year ago today, I thought my dream had reached a very sudden end.

Today, I feel that the Lord was simply asking me to give a little more.

In a year, I’ll be closing in on graduation, and I can hardly believe the path behind me and the journey still before me.

Though our hearts desire, God really is the one who writes the plan. Not everything is going to work out the way we want it- but it will all work out, in the end. Trust is a hard concept to master, but every day is a lesson and I’m so blessed to be learning.

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ROOM REVEAL!

In my 10 Things I Wish I Knew for Freshman YearΒ post, I forgot to mention how much I disliked the first few weeks of school. Between getting books, falling into a new routine, and the general chaos of organizing my life for a new season, it just gets SO overwhelming!! A lot has been going on, and I apologize for my absence. Move in day was insane for Kaitlyn and I. We chose to help the freshman move in so that we could move in early, and skip the chaos. We didn’t think that trying to help 6,000 freshman move into their tiny rooms in the Texas heat was going to be chaos. Can you tell we were wrong? Haha!

It’s been difficult falling into a new study schedule, particularly because my textbooks took a week to ship. So this last week has been a lot of trying to catch up on chapter outlines, notecard-creating, and reading! On top of it all, I decided to staff Bobcat Awakening #42 AND I’m rushing the Catholic service sorority, Mu Epsilon Theta. My, my, MY!

Now that my routine is finally starting to fall together, it’s time to add blogging back into the mix, and it all starts with my RESIDENCE HALL ROOM REVEAL!!!!!!!

Room RevealMy canopy is undoubtedly probably my favorite part of the room. It’s nice because I made it out of voile, so it’s basically a curtain that hangs around my head and keeps the pesky light out when I wanna sleep in a little bit!

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This gem hangs by the end of my bed, and I can see her in my closet mirror!

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See Audrey at the left edge? πŸ™‚ I didn’t have a lot of hanging clothes, and because these individual rooms tend to feel really small when they have a lot of furniture in them, I shoved my dresser into my closet and created an entire “getting-ready station” with all of my clothes, jewelry, and perfumes right next to each other! P

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I love how this wall came out! The picture board, and my canvasses balance out the nightstand perfectly.

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Welcome to my desk area! I love that I get a lot of light from my window. Next to it is my crafting station. I brought my sewing machine this year, and I’m excited to have room to use it!

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This is the collage wall above my desk.

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I like this shot a lot because you can kind of see the little window decoration I made. I didn’t want to hang curtains that would compete with my canopy, but I wanted to draw the attention away from my dingy mini-blinds. So, I made a little curtain of Tiffany blue flowers.

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It’s my personal belief that no room is complete without a cozy reading/study area. So, I strung some lights under my bed and made it a little homey πŸ™‚ I love to stretch out under there and read up on my anatomy.

It’s such a nice place to chill out in. I’ll be posting tutorials based off of some of the stuff I made for my room as the next few weeks go by- I promise! Be on the lookout, Sizzlers!

Sincerely,

Jessica

 

Subtly Stenciled Shoes

Hey sizzlers! It’s been a busy few weeks. Orientation is in full swing at TXST! Woohoo! Welcome class of 2018! Here’s a quick pic of my suitemate and I in our gear:

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Don’t we look adorbs? πŸ™‚ I think the only con to my job is that khakis+outdoors in Texas summer= feeling sweaty all day. It’s definitely tons of fun, though!!

Anyways, I’m coming at you today with another super easy tutorial that is also super quick (minus dry time). I decided that for the second day of our overnight orientation sessions, I wanted a spirited pair of shoes to wear with my jeans! But, I wanted them to be neutral enough that I could wear them with many different outfits on any day of the week, whether I’m working or not. Hence, these stenciled shoes were born!

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YOU WILL NEED:

  • canvas shoes! (walmart for $6, people!)
  • paper or something to create your stencil with. Otherwise, a stencil you like.
  • Tape
  • Tshirt spray paint! (mine was gold glitter)
  • Tissues

HOW TO MAKE IT:

1. I(Not pictured) F YOU ARE CREATING A STENCIL then make it. I traced my Supercat logo off of Google onto a sheet of paper, then cut it out. You can do something similar. If you already have a stencil, you can skip this step.

2. Cover the area you will be working with. Obviously, this poor college kid used a dinky little walmart bag. I would recommend using a trash bag or newspaper so that you can get better coverage! The spray paint CAN splatter quite uncontrollably. Once you have your stencil created, place your shoes on the covered workspace and use a small piece of tape to secure your stencil to the shoe. Then stuff some tissues or paper to the inside of the shoe so the glitter doesn’t get inside too much.

0601141532-0013. Take your handy dandy tshirt spray paint

0515141738AND GO GLITTER CRAZY!!!!!

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This is what it will look like. Be very careful to spray straight AT the stencil and not spray diagonally or anything around it. This will minimize stray splats and keep your stencil as clean-lined as possible πŸ™‚

4. (Not pictured) Set your shoes aside in a place they can dry. I set mine under a fan in my room and it sliced the drying time almost in half. Just saying.

5. (Not pictured) Peel off your stencil when the paint is dry! Be very careful! You may have to scrape off some of the corners that got more heavily saturated.

And here’s the finished product!

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I LOVE wearing them around. A lot of my orientees have given me compliments on them πŸ™‚

So there you have it. Super cute shoes in a few super easy steps πŸ™‚

I hope you’re all having a great summer!

Sincerely,

Jessica

 

 

TXST Room Tour and Folklore

Sizzlers, I apologize for not having posted in a few weeks!! I moved back to San Marcos and orientation training the last few weeks has made for some very long days. We officially start sessions tomorrow, so I have been charging up (read: lots of sleep!) for some very early days and late nights. I am very excited to get the summer started!! πŸ™‚

One of the cool things about orientation is that even though we have to live on campus in what I like to call “the jail dorm” (I like big windows and as you will see below, this place doesn’t have them), we each get our own room and it’s two people to the shared bathroom that connects the rooms. My roommate is a total sweetheart. This is all a HUGE change from my freshman year. It was so nice to go from

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half of a shoe box seen above and below
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Β  my own room!

It was a lot of fun to put together. But do you see what I mean about that window? Eesh! Tower hall (this building) is haunted by the architect’s daughter, who fell out of a window during its construction in the 40s. Therefore, the windows get smaller as you go up in floors. Β They’re small to begin with, and I’m living on the 7th! Oh, well. I have some friends who lived here last year that had some strange things happen to them, but the ghosts haven’t bothered me yet. The anxiety of living on one of the country’s most haunted campuses can be crazy!

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I set up the above area as a day-bed kind of spot. I use it to read and relax at the end of a long day. I raised it so I could shove the dressers underneath it, and I love it! Those string lights have such a warm glow to them.

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This is one of the two Narnia wardrobes in my room. When I open the doors, it provides a really nice, private nook to change in.

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This is how I arranged my desks! I have tons of storage space between the two of them, and they have little pullouts on all sides that will be really convenient when I start doing some sewing stuff (because Β I DID bring my sewing machine! Woo-hoo! you can kind of see it tucked behind my backpack). Credit for the quilt on my bed goes to my Grandmother in upstate New York. It is a truly beautiful piece of artwork. That is a goal for me someday, to learn how to quilt from her.

Anyway, that’s all for now, folks! I can’t promise many regular tutorials because I have yet to experience the real work schedule, but I will get some up as soon as possible!!

Until next time!

Jessica